Tired of dissapointment!

I wish I could come on here just once and post something positive and wonderful but I guess it isn't time for that yet! I had to cancel the hysteroscopy and biopsy I had scheduled because I was bleeding so it is not scheduled for May 10th. I have been bleeding for 3 weeks today and I just pray that it stops in time to get the procedure done.
I spent most of the day crying today- I'm tired of feeling like crap! I dont like to complain to the people in my life because I know there is nothing they can do. I am tired of not being able to make my husbands dream come true. I hate myself for not making my inlaws grandparents. I am tired of not giving my sister and sister in law a niece or nephew. I hate this jealous person I have become. I am sick of dissapointing everyone. :(

Sorry to be such a downer! :(

Dissapointed again...

I had my ultrasound appointment on Monday after a month off. I don't know how this is possible but after just short of 60 days bleeding (only stopping because of taking meds) my lining is even thicker then it was before!! It is now at 22 mm! I'm disgusted! He said that I will have to bleed extra heavy for about three months to get my lining where it needs to be. I don't know how I can handle that- I had some bloodwork done that showed my hemoglobin is already low as is.
I'm booked for a hysteroscopy and biopsy on Monday so he can make sure its nothing else.
Oh well, I'll keep going. What choice do I have? Like I said before if it gets me closer to having a baby I will do anything.